(:

2007-03-10T20:50:00.000+08:00

2007-03-05T16:54:00.000+08:00

Initial plan for today was to crash ajc. I woke up earlier than usual, 5.45am to get washed up and trained down to yck. I think its the earliest i woke since the holidays started.
However, anna and hong lin were late. So we trained back to woodlands. & you know what! Ive never run to school even though when im late. NEVER! but today we started running after crossing the road next to civic centre, and all the way to ijc's side gate. It was a torment to my legs, but i had fun! =DD

It was plain slacking at the canteen and library afterwards. I tell you, slacking is more tiring than listening in class. But ive got the experience of jc life, the atmosphere and how is it like. COOOL!
Whatever it is, im reconsidering again! Posting results are going to be out tml, if i get what i want, i will try to settle down. If not, ohh i dont know. (:

Went back to msl with anna after that in the noon, we chatted a few hours with mrs ng and crapped alot with ms tan.
Deep down im truely happy. I feel that ive really grown up, ive really graduated from secondary and completed 10years of education. The things around me are changing without me knowing. Whatever it is, i have to wish everyone all the best in their roads ahead. What doesnt kills but makes you stronger?

Im moving (on).
Im shifting to my new territory!

(:

2007-02-24T23:36:00.000+08:00

but if you're always looking for reasons not to be with somebody, and you always find them. then i guess at some point maybe you should let go and give your heart what it deserves

2007-02-22T22:38:00.000+08:00

deleted/on hiatus/closure/shifting/ran away.

its been a while.

2007-02-22T20:39:00.000+08:00

Hello boy it's been a while
Guess you'll be glad to know
That I've learned how to laugh and smile
Getting over you was slow
They say old lovers can be good friends
But I never thought I'd really see you
I'd really see you again

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
No my heart just can't hide that old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby you know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

You say she satisfies your mind
Tells you all of her dreams
I know how much that means to you
I realize that I was blind
Just when I thought I was over you
I see your face and it just ain't true
No it just ain't true

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
It's starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy
No my heart just can't hide
That old feeling inside
Way deep down inside
I go crazy
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Crazy

2007-02-21T23:30:00.000+08:00

Its been sometime i update my post properly.

Let me recalled what i did...

Visitings and poker cards sum up my new year celebrations. In short, Chinese New Year this year was fabulous because the tarts were nice and my angbao collection this year was W-O-A-H! =D

Im so regreted getting the dress from Little Match Girl that day, i could have spend the money for a dress from ZARA. & especially its from ZARA, its cheap thrill if you can find a 70dollars dress in there. I can't tell you how much I love shopping by myself. Just like plug in ear phones and walk, find, see. So anyways, I figured I must have been shopping around quite abit or reading too many magazines or paying too much attention to clothes and fashion. TSK TSK! Because that means i havent been using the holidays wisely. I wanted to go for German classes, like how dad keeps wanting me to go. But untill now i havent touch abit of research and whats more, the enrollment dates are over! LALALA. Im really becoming a crouch potato(i think more like a CRUSHED potato!). I fret long holidays now and i cant wait to get back to study mode again. I want to mug like last time and get serious.

Was listening to Come What May, when I'm suddenly reminded of the movie I watched. Moulin Rouge. Come what may... Come what may~~
My library book is 1 month overdued. Big shit if mum knows it.

Aha, something funny happened just now. Comes to think of it, im really scare when someone goes missing. Everything's fine now! chills. (:

goodnight folks.

2007-02-20T19:40:00.000+08:00

BNWT Little miss Junkfood tees.

anybody interested?

other designs too, mail me if you're interested!
(:

2007-02-16T22:07:00.000+08:00

I guess im sick of bugis village for the time being. Shopping was awesome. But still, i did not manage to get my shoes yet! Its new year eve tomorrow, what am i going to wear with my dress and pretty pretty clothes?! ughh! Sounds retarded, im going to think what to do with it while drifting to sleep later on. I hope bro can drive me down to bugis tml morning!

How amazing. I had a great day, despite a little glitch with my mum, but I think all's fine. Oh god, I binged on new year goodies this evening. Who's the pig, I'm the pig! Dad received alot of goodies from his friends, i think this year mum can save up alot! hahaha.
After march holidays, im going slog out working for some extra pocket money so that i can get my things needed for school. & im so much looking forward to march holidays because im flying again!! =DD

Recently, im into spongebob's cartoon. Every night i will start watching it on the laptop before i go to sleep. Its real cool and im loving it. Thats why i ended up waking in the late noon and feeling even moe lethargic. I think i must start to kick off this bad habit.
For the first time today, i clean my contact lens carefully! ;))

Okay, i hope everyone has a great weekend, Gong xi fa cai! ( Happy Chinese New Year babes :] )

did i mention how much i love this picture as much as i love my girls! :DD

2007-02-14T11:14:00.000+08:00

Its valentine's day. & you tell people how much you love them!
so here goes to some of the impt people in my life.

Dearest buddy Saw Weili: As much as I'd like to spend today with you, but oh how sad, YOU CANT! hahaha. You've been a great bestfriend throughout the past year. You'll always be my bestfriend, no matter who I'm with. You still can come over and chill with me :) I'd be more than happy to have you here with me! I think we've been through alot, from sweet to bitter. We share really almost everything under the sun! and after all that, we're still the bestest friends in the whole world. :) Thank you. Thank you for your ears through the years. No matter how late it was in the night, you still woke without failing texting with me, making me feel all strong again. Very much appreciated. Cheers to our 9 years of friendship. I hope we still can stay as close like before even im not in school anymore. thank you for your unconditional friendship. <33

Hanling: it's amazing how we're still friends.. And even though you hang me upside down, you're still way cool. hahaha! It's kinda scary how we always say the same things, you're fun to bitch with esp on the phone!! omg, your witch laughs never never never fails to make me happy. :) Stop dating the wrong girls, man!!!! You're way too good for those idiots!! Thanks for all the putting up with me, sharing my heartbreaks, being my listening ear and comforting me, thank you for our friendship and being a brother to me. LOVEEEEEE! XDD

KER ANNA: i'm glad we've grown closer. Ive never mentioned or sheldom share my thoughts with you! aha, but deep down, i know you care for all. You're always that blur and silly, & you dont know how to take actions! Its you who motivates me in life, esp in studies. Thanks for always being there to help out with whatever I need helping out with. Have fun with your imaginery boyfriend! :) You've been superbly fun.. you and your nonsense :) I miss our school days. Thanks for all the great time we have, big hugs! You mean alot to me. I hope the friendship runs on in future, wherever i am, i am just a phone call away. rmb tht by heart. & no offence whenever i starts to tease you about! hahaha. (:

SHEN JIAYING: I love you woman! You listen to me whine about stupid people, everything and everything. From studying, sitting together in school, gg recess tgth, ice-cream sessions!! all and all! You're the awesomest friend in the whole world. thank you for your company and your understanding. Thanks for putting up all the nonsense i made. You know im a very straight-forward person, so when i dont think before i talk, pls forgive me! hehehe. & pls STOP POKING ME IN THE PUBLIC! i scare la. xPP the same thing, i hope we can remain as schoolmates. You know im always there for you if you need somebody to talk to, i on my phone 24hours!! hahaha.
I love you!! <3 Take care. Have an awesome Valentines' Day! :D

Teddy Teoh: hahaha, i still love to call you this way. You might be shocked to see this here! What we shared, it's just too much to put into words. You made me realise the capacity of my heart to love someone when every moment i'm loving you almost isnt enough. I dont hate you, i could never hate you. I still remembered your smile and the way you could hold me in your arms, and my heart was heavy. But now i no longer fooled myself. How i adored you in return, but that was then... Ive really learned alot from you. From tolerance patience to compromising, im sure i will be a even better person. You learnt alot from me too!! Letting you go wasnt wrong, it is having the courage to accept change, and the strength to keep moving. I used to see things narrowly, where it was just you and me. Now, i see how wide the sky is and the open mind confidence. Ive grown alot. I'll remember you, that's forever true.You're the one that I'll always miss. <33'

my parents (even though they may never get to see this) thank you for your forgiveness and understanding.

to those whom have expressed your concern for me but dont see your names up there, (even if it's just a pat on my shoulder or a simple "you ok?") please forgive me because i pressed for time. but it certainly doesnt mean you guys dont mean anything to me, you guys mean so much and you all can be sure that everyone of you are in my heart always. i just wanna say thank you, thank you for speaking to me - a msg of love.

Everyone: HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY!!!

2007-02-13T00:37:00.000+08:00

POOL is soooooooooooooo fun!

Anybody going next time, pls allow me to tag along! hehehe.

took loads of neoprints today and photos at tcc!
snapping is fun but uploading is a terror!

:)

2007-02-12T22:06:00.000+08:00

I made my choices, and i hope it wont be a bad one. I cant be counted to choose, everyone knows I'm really bad at deciding.

Anyhows, i went to settle mum's watch in the noon. My mobile rolled down the stairs with a PIAK sound. ugh! im clumsy, but luckily its still functioning well.
In the night, i went to buy some new year decorations. Saw Alan when i was on the way, he looks so different already.
The crashed desktop pc came back today, but its still not functioning normally. I got no idea why also. oh and brother transfer alot of movies to my lappy just now. hahaha! =DD

Im in love with tui hou by jay, i know its quite old. But i get so emo whenever the song plays.

I hope my buddy gets well soon, go go fight the virus!

whatever it is, there's a class outing tml. I hope i can wake up in time. Sweet is coming to my house tml! yuuhooo..

im off for my prison break.
goodnight folks!

2007-02-11T18:02:00.000+08:00

The toughest part of getting to the top of the ladder is getting through the crowd at the bottom. Never, never, never give up!

quoted from mr chew!

(:

2007-02-11T14:34:00.000+08:00

History is just repeating itself again, i pictured myself in a dilemma yet again. I struggled within, to come up with a decision that i wouldnt regret when i think back. Should i try my luck once more? Its like placing my future in stake. However much i wish to try, im afraid of setbacks, they came hitting me last year, am i able to handle it again?

Nevertheless, im thankful to all the mentors along the way especially Hui Keng. She's the one whom i approached to when i was stucked between thriple pure classes during secondary 3, and now i approached to her for advice.

It seems that every year, i'll be drowning myself with my indecisiveness on how i should go about paving my future (in terms of studies). I'm quite amused by myself, to my contradictions and whats not. Before the release of results, its vexing. But now, thinking of where to go gave me jitters, no significant apparent reason but probably im afraid of my future. To be true, i have always want to be a sucessful woman. Like the father, who earned big K in a month. Thats why whenever i hear about the salary of a diploma graduate, i will huh here and there.
I should start to chase away those thoughts, wherever im going to be and what will i be next time, it starts from this minute.

to the others, all the best in the choices made.
(:

2007-02-09T23:20:00.000+08:00

jc or poly?

mum and bro gave me very good advice, im starting to think all over it.

sigh... this is vexing.

2007-02-08T19:41:00.000+08:00

Taking the temperature every hour, running to the toilet every half an hour are killing me off. Just before the big day, im caught with a fever. Its funny how it deteriorates from a sore throat. I hope i can make it tomorrow noon.

I went to the doctor just now, and he asked me do you need any pills for better sleep tonight? & i started laughing.

Its so nerve wrecking! You'll see all O level students sufferring from insonmia. I am worried, and nope, no confidence at all. Oh dear. I can see the tears, the joy, and the pain. I dont think I can quite take any shocks from whoever that is going to release the results to us.

Since there's no prison break tonight, i shall turn in now.
meanwhile, all the veryveryveryveryveryvery best to my classmates and others taking results!

~~Have a little faith.~~

2007-02-07T23:08:00.000+08:00

Yesterday dad sent me to sweet's house and he left for work.
The date with sweet was fab. Both of us were in high spirits and our mood were set for the day! Both of us spent 100 over plus on a top and bottom. I shall not furthur elaborate how both of us sing at NEWAY, it was totally madness. Untill now, my throat is painful especially when im gulping water.
That sweet was in high spirits and kept playing her boyfriend's song. I think the funniest part was when we sang liang shan bo(blahblah..!) both of us burst into fits of laughter, i laughed till my sides hurt. I record it down, whenever i played it, i will start smiling to myself. (:
& their charges were so cheap, manymany times cheaper than kbox.

SWEEEEEET, AGAIN NEXT WEEEK!

Today, it was meeting up with tiko brother hanling. Its been ages since we met up! & he pinched me on my face the moment he saw me, like big F painful. Not just once, but many times. Went down to get my pay before we chilled out at Coffee Bean.

its funny how we meet so many different people in our lives, but we only need a handful of 'em to be content. as long as we know who our true friends are, its not too hard to be.

(:

2007-02-05T20:37:00.000+08:00

Wentworth miller, he's every girls heart-throb! :DDDDDDDDDDD

Mum came back in the noon to pick me up for new year shopping. Basically, its all about those new year goodies, new bedsheet and clothesss. (:

While i was looking at the flowers today, mum gave me a O-M-G look.
" EHH, GIRL AH! YOUR NOSE GOT BLACKHEADS UH? "
i was like Q%*#%^&#^%&!!! HUH?!?!
She ruins the entire noon, distract me pls. ):

Whatever it is, results are coming out on 9th. Its confirmed over the news and spammed all over msn.

My blogskin is all done again, preetty right!

The art of rejection, ive learned it and its right straight away.
Im a straight forward person. (:

I should better get off to pack my bag and take my dinner before mum starts to talk sense in me.

cheers.

2007-02-05T16:50:00.000+08:00

Your view on yourself:
You are intelligent, honest and sweet. You are friendly to everybody and don't like conflict. Because you're so cheerful and fun people are naturally attracted to you and like to talk to you.

The type of girlfriend/boyfriend you are looking for:
You are not looking merely for a girl/boyfriend - you are looking for your life partner. Perhaps you should be more open-minded about who you spend time with. The person you are looking for might hide their charm under their exterior.

Your readiness to commit to a relationship:
You are ready to commit as soon as you meet the right person. And you believe you will pretty much know as soon as you might that person.

The seriousness of your love:
Your have very sensible tactics when approaching the opposite sex. In many ways people find your straightforwardness attractive, so you will find yourself with plenty of dates.

Your views on education
You may not like to study but you have many practical ideas. You listen to your own instincts and tend to follow your heart, so you will probably end up with an unusual job.

The right job for you:
You're a practical person and will choose a secure job with a steady income. Knowing what you like to do is important. Find a regular job doing just that and you'll be set for life.

How do you view success:
You are confident that you will be successful in your chosen career and nothing will stop you from trying.

What are you most afraid of:
You are afraid of things that you cannot control. Sometimes you show your anger to cover up how you feel.

Who is your true self:
You are mature, reasonable, honest and give good advice. People ask for your comments on all sorts of different issues. Sometimes you might find yourself in a dilemma when trapped with a problem, which your heart rather than your head needs to solve.

http://www.quizbox.com/personality/test82.aspx

2007-02-04T17:38:00.000+08:00

So it had been rumoured that the results will be out on the 9th or prolly even earlier! Im beginning to feel really anxious. I worry that i may not be able to live up to mine own expectations, i fear for my humanities especially. I can't imagine the day we collect our results, the tension that suspends us as we queue up to receive our results. The quick thumping of our hearts when Mr Chew passes us our result slips, as we take a deep breath, then glance at the "L1R5" section with great trepidation. Even now as i picture myself receiving my results, my palms turn clammy..

3 months since we've been waiting for the day itself, how will i react upon my results? What should i do after that? Call for a celebration or a breakaway?
I regret for not studying hard enough and taking things seriously...

Its all too late now.

Awaiting, all lucks my friends!

2007-02-04T15:28:00.000+08:00

City square with mum yesterday! Got a few tops only, it was just a short 2 hours before dad came to pick us up for dinner.
Chanced upon the EVERLAST pump. It is much cheaper than sg but sadly, they dont have my size.
Dinner was great, all my favourite dish plus the 2 durians which cost dad RM90 bucks. hahaha! but we enjoyed...
Dad brought us to chill around johor jaya, the weather in the night is cooling. Mum drove us back to sg while dad stayed behind with his friends.

that was my yesterday. (:

Im going to drink gallons of water. Sore throat aint getting any better after all the BaGua and durians. all these shall go before cny so i can enjoy myself, indulging in pineapple tarts!! woohoo.
& of course the great date with ANNNAKER! Our MANGO shopping spree and of course NEWAY!
Mum dont allow me to sleep-over at her house, only at aunt's place if i want. How sad, or else we will be able to talk and talk for the whole night. (:

On another note, the results are coming out sooon.
this sucks big time.

laters!

2007-02-02T23:25:00.000+08:00

plain chilling around vivo today with dumdiddly.
shopping with mama tml :DD

PS: dont try coffee bean's latest sunrise ice blended!

ugh.....im hungry!

screw my nose again....

2007-02-02T00:19:00.000+08:00

running and blowing nose,
fuck it.

my mind is all on prison break, its on hiatus next week! Any kind soul pls lend it to me, im so desperate for it!

i should turn in now...

2007-01-31T17:42:00.000+08:00

So i had been sleeping through the afternoon. Its 5.30pm now and i just woke!

Im down with eye irritation, i think it must be the contact lens problem. It had been hurting me since yesterday's noon untill i starts to feel the sharp pang of pain in my left eyes yesterday night. Whats more, it starts to itch this morning. Nevertheless i dragged myself out of bed and went down to the bank before going to the doctor.
Compared to ying's one, i think mine is a minor case. From the way she elaborates about her eyes, she's the one who needs to take great care!
I think i passed the virus to her when i was out with her yesterday, now both of us are having sore throat down with eye irritation!

I have to drink alot of water, im dehydrating myself. Sore throat and flu come together.. Looks like for the rest of the day, im going to be stucked at home!
The weather's great, with all the cold breeze sweeping through the streets. How nice if i have a warm bagel with me now. (: but its okay, i just glupped down 2 bowls of toahua!

%3^Fjdi1z9/F1zgrjtkgt*, this is going mad. When can i turn 18?? I want to grab my driving licence!! Sweet is going for theory lesson already, when is my turn!?!?

Anyhow, im starting to think what to wear for cny! hahaha, in fact i still have a long shopping list to go.

Alright, meeting mummy later.

2007-01-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

Went shopping with mummy dearest yesterday! She offers to pay up all my stuffs, im guilty already. Im working but yet they are still giving me pocket money and paying my things. Anyhow, let actions do the talking. Wait till i see some good days in my bank account, yuuuudoooo! (:

laters, met ying sweet for shopping spree today. Both of us spent quite some money today huh, didnt bring enough cash and my card wasnt ready yet so im going down to bugis this week again! & ying has this fetish of hitting people's breast! sheeeeeeeeessshhh, i cant elaborate on. =PP

Its funny how we always want more than what we have. Comparing with others, comparing with what we think we should have. Sometimes learning to be content is an important lesson we all need to learn. We should learn to be perfectly happy with what we have, to feel lucky for what we have and who we are because contentment's a blessing.
Happiness comes in many form, in the company of good friends, in the feeling you get when you make someone else's dream come true, Or in the promise of hope renewed..cos you never know how fleeting that happiness might be.

It serves as an important lesson to me,
once bitten twice shy.

2007-01-30T10:51:00.000+08:00

I belong to me...

It's not that I don't wanna share my life with you baby
It's just that I'm the one I need to be true to baby
And I won't give up me to be part of you
It's not that I don't wanna have you in my life baby
It's just you gotta know that it's got to be right baby
Before I open up my heart to you

I don't need somebody to complete me
I complete myself
Nobody's got to belong to somebody else

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

I gotta let you know before I let you in, baby
That who I am is not about who I am with, baby
That don't mean I don't wanna be here with you
I do

I don't need somebody to complete me
I want you to know
I'll give up my love but I'm not giving up my soul

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you're gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

Oh yea

Love don't mean changing who you are to be
Who somebody wants you to be
Nobody's got to belong to nobody

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection

I belong to me
I don't belong to you
My heart is my possession
I'll be my own reflection
I belong to me
I'm one not half of two
And if you gonna love me
You should know this baby
I belong to me

2007-01-27T22:25:00.000+08:00

Starts to get emo when its time to leave, saying goodbye is hard or i should say i dont like to. I reckon its good to have a break now, but to start all over again is going to be different. Many thanks to my friends who are almost always there to catch me when I fall. (:

BUT hey, im not a emo girl. Im a happy girl.
*cheeeeeeseeee*
=DDD
Whatever it is, im firm with myself and im not going back this time round.

I went back to woodlands after work today. Tried gio's skinny jeans but i found it not really pretty and slimming as compared to those GAP skinnies. I would rather save up the money and get the GAP's one. Its PAY DAY soooon! and its going to be crazy shopping for the next week. -jump around-
However, the main thing wasnt about the jeans, its about buying food at pasar malam! tadah, and i caught a pair of shoes. Uh huh. (:

SG VS MAS now! shit, i better pray hard SG is going to win. I place a bet with ben today. MY MONEEEEEYY! Its for fun anyway, haha!

So to much people's will and pleasure, my tagboard is alive!

I love the weather, so catch some good sleep!

2007-01-26T20:38:00.000+08:00

I'm feeling mighty happy today!

BECAUSEEEEEEEEE, its the finally-reunion among the four of us. It was a last minute one, fate decides to let us meet outside the L-O-V-E. hahaha, right my girls?! WHO KNOWS?

NYP wasnt much attractive.
Everything spells fun today, it was endless bitching and gossiping. 3 of us lunch at pizzahut before chilling out at starbuck cafe.
We walked over to the park mall before sitting down at the noodle shop with hui round this time, catching up on our life and all. Starts to get emo when we have to say goodbye. It wasn't anything deep heart-to-heart, but it was such a heart-warming, simple and enjoyable 30mins. (;

i guess this is how things go. time pushes us along and takes us to different places, gives us different experiences. But we bargain with it, asking it to let us stay for a while longer. And it grants us that small leeway allowing us to find that even if we stand still, time doesn't stop.
Others come in like the tide, moving in and closing in. After a while you realize that this isn't your place anymore and that perhaps it is time for you to let go and move on because time and God will bring new and perhaps more exciting things your way but i am reminded that to let go doesn't mean to forget.

move on! live it up to life..
(:

I rushed all the way home yesterday night to catch prison break, although its after those long hours at work, i stay up to catch the 2-hr special. Im going crazy over it. Whoever owns the CD, pls lend it to meeeee!
THE ESCAPE IS ON, BUT NOT ALL WILL MAKE IT OUT ALIVE.
=DDDDDDDDDDDDDDDD

Results will be out on 9th of feb, from reliable sources. #$!Q%*#%^&#^%&amp;^#&%^(Q%&#!!!
howwwwwww??

Im going to enjoy myself for the next few weeks, meanwhile to think of where should i be.

Have a good weekend everyone!

2007-01-22T20:19:00.000+08:00

I was off today, so i woke up around late afternoon. I didnt plan to get to anywhere since both of my sweeties are busy & na stole my treasure book away, ):

anyhow, i coloured my hair today. The outcome was different from what i expected, it turns out to be a little red and gold in colour. Its only obvious under the light, i should say ive wasted my money. Meanwhile, i feel like chopping my hair short to those chic bob style you see on the street but i couldnt make my decision each time i visit the hairdresser. Lets see for the next month.
What I've learnt from getting haircuts over the years is....
- When you've found THE hairstylist, stick to him, be loyal, be faithful.
- Don't go searching for greener pastures, it's just not worth it. (unless you have recommendations from friends)
-trust your instincts.

i hit the tracks in the evening today, i got to reckon that i havent been to the stadium since ive finished my exams, thats why i didnt even know that the swimming complex is under construction! im such a saddist, hahaha!
I run, i dont walk anymore. Now my butt is hurting, must be the aftermath of the run. owww...
YINGGGG, i run for healthy lifestyle! not for jianfei-ing! ;))

Talking to tiko hanling makes my day!

me: HELLLOOOO KUKU BIRD!
him: EH! NIAO REN! KAN NI NA! U GO WHERE FLY KITE SIA
me: I NV FLY KITE LA
me: I DRIVE CARRRRR
him: HAHA. DRIVE SI MI LAN
me: TOY CAR LA

*laughs*

him: i need to go out like 20 mins liddat,
me: can lo.
him: sure mahs
him: i very scare go out leh.
him: na beh
him: later come back u really go fly kite..
me: I LEAVE MSG HERE IF I GO FLY KITE, =DD

off for tv prog! (:

2007-01-22T13:47:00.000+08:00

2007-01-20T21:44:00.000+08:00

Im on mc today(its OH AGAIN!)

I became so shagged out yesterday night and i know things werent good when the pain starts to come again. I hit the sack around ten, very unusual huh.
Woke around 8, texted IC for my reason of absence today before i went back and sleep till late afternoon.

Shut my phone for the entire day, indulging in the music and my beauty sleep. Because really, today's not the day I can entertain people, and act like the pouring rain out there hasn't got much effects on me.
Do not talk to me unless you've a good joke to tell, a song to sing, a few words to comfort, a shoulder for me to borrow, a big fuzzy hug to offer and perhaps some words of wisdom. And it wasn't even supposed to be so hard.

So i did a little online shopping today and of course web browsing. You people should take a look at ZARA'S boutique website when you are freeeee, their trends adv are so chic and oh-so-nice especially under the kids section. I capture a few photos with my phone and used it as my wallpaper since its kind of copyright and you cant save the picture. (:
Now, im torn over the choices of shoes, drastically differing ones though. What a tough choice, with their own pros and cons. I want the lacoste and adidas one badly. Below are a few shoes, the lacoste and everlast one are not shown. Give me comments, which one should i get?

oh frowns ):

2007-01-19T22:20:00.000+08:00

complicated souls, we are
or do we complicate things on our own?

2007-01-18T11:52:00.000+08:00

Waking up late (11pm) + sleeping early (2am) = sleep disorder.
Sleep disorder + never drink enough water = SICK.

my bones are dismanting. Im sleepy...

Ive finished my chicken soup and a bottle of chicken essence, i need alot of tonics you see. & mum had been reminding me every night before i went to sleep to drink essence the next morning, if i dont, my phone will start to buzz in the late evening and the nags goes on. thats how cute mummy is. (:

Pastamania has got new menu and introduced another type of pasta, farfalle. Ive yet to try it, maybe the next time.

Work had been superb bored, i think i talked more with ben than i worked. Imagine both of us stand at the front, side by side for half an hour without a single soul walking into the shop. Of course sales was poor so we got to go home earlier. Later, it will be another round of lecture again since fat IC is coming back from her long-break. Sigh... Like whatever, I'll make it through all the tough shit that is coming.

There's a new course introduced in tp/np. Both of the courses attracted me fairly. One is the aviation related course and the other one is the psychology blah blah. Ive been curious how an aircraft works when i was a little kid on the plane, untill now I AM still curious. I should give a look tml. (:

Im off to bath...

2007-01-17T11:32:00.000+08:00

stop procrastinating, and believe on improving, don't care how others see of what you do, cos what matters is that you know what you have done and learnt through the period of time.

if you think everything had been toppling on top of you, start from scratch, not so succumbing to the setbacks of life. Dont let those efforts of yours went down the drain, make it a better next time.

Thinking and thinking, it will only let your thoughts to take control of your mind. Just when all seems to be giving up and indulgence for self pity lurks, you see the contrast of a failure and success.
But you jolly know well, you can still conquer it all.
Emotions are just one's self abuse. Not saying we dont need them, but you rules it all, you can choose not to allow it to be conductors of thoughts and actions....

A defeat may teared all your confidence and pulled you back to ground zero again, now take things to little scales and taking a big picture, you just need to start from HERE, thats all.

You fall to rise and you rise to last.

Mum always tell us this,
" nth's impossible, its just us who wasnt reaching out far enough " (:

Now better get your ass in gear before you turn old and grey.

good luck.

2007-01-16T11:18:00.000+08:00

i love this skin but i have no idea why the green box is so out of hand, urggg! i need help, somebody!
I dont want to change the skin because my favourite pic is there, at least i felt refreshed with the new look.

Life is as usual, my colleagues and i went crystal jade to dine yesterday and we had a splendid evening there. Thanks to ben who paid up! after which we went to CHECK to get the big puma bag for fat IC. We went jalan jalan before heading home.
time had been passing fast and its my last week there. Ive gained experience(at least) and i know how hard money is earned. At least im better than brother who slacked and earned his money for nothing. Thats how dad always pummle with his words at him.

Casting that aside, i have started internet shopping again. because i have no time for real time shopping. Come to think about it, its quite sad. New year is coming and ive yet to get any new shoes or new clothes. Date me out and we shall go for shopping. (:

I heard this song yesterday on radio TWICE. Such a sad song. Ive posted the video in the previous post. Im loving it.

I go crazy
When I look in your eyes
I still go crazy
That old flame comes alive
It's starts burning inside
Way deep down inside
Oh baby
You know when I look in your eyes
I go crazy

Off today, im looking forward to my date with my sweeties on coming friday!
I should better get bath now, meeting mummy later for my health check.

take care all.

2007-01-15T22:50:00.000+08:00

2007-01-13T23:27:00.000+08:00

I was being awarded this so call best salesgirl yesterday during work and im proud of myself. Basically i hit the individual target and im the only person who did it plus its the first day of the new rules and new arrival products, however i was totally shagged out. Waking up at 6am going for work and reaching home only at 12am. I boarded the wrong train when returning, the one to jurong direction, i got no idea why too, thats why i returned home later than i supposed to.

Went republic poly's open house with ying today, not much fun and excitement. After which i met up dad and waited for bro to come and fetch me up before we went to pick up mummy. Like finally, mum came home today. We bought her the new Zen V Plus for her and she was thrilled happy! hahaha, she bought us choco too. I felt a total change in mum, she went for POP, the psychology of potential course. Dad went previously and they changed for the better. I love mummy! I told mum i lose all my detemination and aims, my life is cocked-up with too many stuffs and ive got no idea what i want in life. Therefore i might be going with mum in 2 weeks time for AQ. I hope dad will allow me to. In there, i will find back myself and what i want. A better person. (:

I was reading all the archives of rougesheer-, but i stopped halfway and i couldnt go on reading. The back pull force was so strong, how one single day of thinking, and being made to feel like i'm not good enough.

Im gg to keep a kickass gorgeous diary with me from now on. i will pen down my floodgate of emotions. Im still looking for the diary. Till then, it might be the closure of rougesheer too.

sleepy, tired, weirdly at peace for a while.
going to turn in now, breakfast with mummy tml!

toodles...

2007-01-09T20:17:00.000+08:00

You will never know how horrific today was, yes i turned up for work but returned home the next 2 hours. i fainted during work, the next thing i know i was in raffles medical group. so i got my new medication and was bedridden the next few hours. it was being diagnose as Vertigo, a major symptom of balance disorder.
I need a long recuperate period.
Every hour, i feel as if im sailing on a ship. When i closed my eyes, i saw balls rolling and moving around.
mum wants me to resign immediately, i cant afford to pay my life for those fatigue.
I know my own condition better than anyone, it drops drastically and im not going to know what will happen next week or the next hour...

I need fresher air, i need to get out of all these. I need to exercise, i want to recover, i dont want to depend on any medication.

heh so dont think im eating snake when you see me on the net!
that doesnt mean i lost my hyper-ness! life goes on isnt it?
(:

offfffff to ressssst!

enjoooy your life to the fullest cos every second ticks your life away!

2007-01-08T20:16:00.000+08:00

im too sleepy to update for the past few couple of days, here there im back.

so im on MC today,(again) i requested for coming in later but around noon fat IC called and asked me to stay in at home to rest. Looks like, the entire cwp branch knows im sick, joyce beh went around looking for people to relief me.
Its those aftermath of not heeding the doc's advice, those painkillers left me weak and sleepy. Mum came home with those chinese medicine from the medical hall and asked to gulp down at once, im a good girl so.....
Im not staying any longer, the enthuastic in me is no longer there anymore. Workload is getting heavier with her around and pimples are joining in the fun.

mummy brought up the issue on studying overseas again, like UHHHHHHH, she's still saying the same thing, im worried about you and all.. i know she's worried but even if she agrees, i dont think dad will so i should settle my stuffs down and concentrate on where i am going next. Had a long chat with mum when she was cooking today, she questioned me but the irony is that i feel someone is supporting me which was totally different from few days back, how things took a down and so on, it is always difficult to talk about difficult stuff. She's going away and wont be back untill saturday, i swear the house will be upside down without her around.

look, ive so much things not done especially getting down to the bank to settle my things. there's too little time and mummy wont be around soon. i hate this.

oh & btw ive removed my tagboard, i dont feel there is a need to. There's a post comment columm under every post, drop your little notes there.

i love muttons, 987fm!! yay-ness.
there's work tml.

2007-01-06T21:49:00.000+08:00

things had been going unsuccessfully these days.
Mum nags alot because i stayed out late few days back and also because im such a lazybone.
Had been having late suppers, chilling outside after work and returning home late.

Im not myself.
Believe me or not, i had been fucking screamed at continuously for two days by fat IC. First, it was about a mistake and irresponsible action, yay blame the parco bugis's staft who transferred the wrong thing over, fancy get the PLU code wrongly despite saying handful of times but luckily my customer was understanding enough. phew.
& today, i was bombarded with another round of lecture in the store for around 30mins or so. She said i look so fragile and weak, and she's very unhappy with my work performance. I received praises the first few weeks, but after which i started to slack during work, she said i stared into space most of the time during work, and the whole shop looked like a zombie shop, i mean who will be enthu with her around? More STRESS i think.. Who will be in good spirits after a round of ranting? I dont need her concern about my things. Like whatever, see who's not tired? Ben's going to get terminated soon, its probably my turn next but im not going to let that happen, im going to resign myself!
Let she herself operate the entire shop!

Restless and knackered. & to that girl, it's sickening how i still get misunderstood and that has all got to go out the window but whatever, its up to you.

I feel an abundance of energy inside me.

I wanna go back to school... Its strange how much i wished school had stopped when i was still schooling, right now school had stopped but i miss school... To those who are enjoying their 3-mth jc life now, ENJOOOOOY pleaseee..
At least i have a target now.

Its amazing how life works. The times when we were just a kid, getting content over the slightest thing, a little sweet can change our old day, but yet right now, its so hard to be happy. You people agree with me right!

Anyhows, right now, all i have to do is to turn on that engine and start to move forth.

oh and btw, Popular bookstore is retailing a book called, The Rules Of Life. If anybody happens to have tht book, pls LENNNND it to meeee!

Channel 5 is screening Underworld tonight! =DDDDDDD
laters!

2007-01-03T22:26:00.000+08:00

town-ed and eat today.
crazy shopping at F21 and far-east..

back to work again.

guys, i might be shifting again!

2007-01-02T22:54:00.000+08:00

Okay, so whats up for nooooooow!

NEW YEAR RESOLUTIOOOOOONSSSSS.
this year im going to keep my resolutions, and i mean it this time..

2007

-no more heartbreaks. meanwhile im going to keep myself not available. (:
-no more dangling around, make a comeback and be serious!
-straight home after work, no hobbling around till late night.
-bank account see some good days.
-cleaning my contact lenses more carefully.
-stay away from troubles.
-happier.

its gonna be a brand new start!
so lets welcome it with open arms, and enjoy ourselves even better.
it certainly shows that the older you get, the faster a year passes by.

all the best people...

2007-01-02T12:39:00.000+08:00

& when i moved to anna's, woooah spice and colours. hahaha!

i remembered how i told ying, i sit with you my life no colours and spice, hahaha!

i miss you people...

destiny greedily changed it all,
and i can do shite nothing about it...
ps, i love you...
from the most sensational novel

random..

2007-01-01T10:20:00.000+08:00

now i can't believe time has passed this fast
a year is almost gone, just like that in a swift blowing moment.
how i went back together with you, how i met my sweeties in life, how we graduated together...
bittersweet..

this year was unlike the others, i started it with falling, picking up, handling all the issues, maturing with the breaking events, learning every bit of life and holding on strong to what i've gotten.
Before the results were out, i lost my goal. I had always been an ambitious person, it was so not-within-my-reach. be it family issues, school issues or personal issues, everything seemed so wrong and left me feeling out of place and weird being in the situations.

I took things in stride and pick up from where i was in the early year, things became the other way round when i picked up the call from you. The path then was so blissful, tough and so new to me. & together we went so far.

time can't be reversed,
which told me that i really had to reflect on the daily events of my life
things were ever-changing.
maturing and learning from the mistakes made, the efforts that were down the drain, cos of the lack of motivation and will,
i hoped that i was given another chance to prove myself.
i hoped i can stop procrastinating like before, and i believe i did improve on that, i don't care how others see of what i do, cos it matters is that i know what i've done and learnt through the period of time.

lessons learnt, time pages flipped, enriching life journey through the months whereby things started to get better.
thats where school, i found very nice people. i moved on from my ex-cliques of friends, got to mingle around with new friends, felt like a reborned life, though it was still quite far from the original i thought of.
but things started to pick up along the way, i gained more experience and learning lessons, which makes what i am today.
stronger and tougher than before, not so succumbing to the setbacks of life.

in conclusion, 2006 had been a learning journey for me.
i fell and learned, i cried and laughed, i seeked chances and stepped out on a new path towards another goal of life.
disappointment befalled upon me once again, but i'm better able to handle it now with the will and power to do something, i believe we all can.
life's full of ups and downs, i believe, everyone has their own way to deal with them, achieving greater heights to where they each stand today. :)

i'm grateful for the loved ones who continued to stand by during those period of times, it certainly did helped. no words can explain how much i have for you guys, thanks so so so much and i love you all.

Very unfortunate...
Today, things went haywire. never had i encountered such feelings, such depression towards the lost of some things. I wish it could have stayed the way it had been in the beginning, before things changed between us, before the misunderstandings took place &before we became two very different people. I allow myself a night to relinquish all self-control &fully immerse myself in these memories of the past. That is all I can afford to do right now. To say the truth, im lost this time round, in actual fact its me who dont know how to react and respond...

anyhows, still the same quote..
"what doesn't kills but makes you stronger?"

i do hope for a better year ahead, hopefully...
goodbye 2006...

2006-12-28T19:04:00.000+08:00

throbbing pain.
deteriorates into fever in the late noon.
extra strong painkillers.

2 days of mc,
dont be suprised and buzz me on the net.
to be true, im worried enough..

):

resssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssst.

2006-12-26T22:10:00.000+08:00

this year's xmas is just that simple and mundane
there's no christmas-ly mood.
quiet, no countdowns, not much fun, much tv watching and lazing.

simple meals were done and not forgetting pressie exchange,
ive yet to get my new watch. ):

so i was off today, tagged along with my parents to the bank in the late afternoon to get things done. Then we went back to jb to have our dinner and SHOPPPPPING, like finally i got my johnson cuffed shorts.((:
today's the last tues of 2006, i shall keep my reflection for year 2006 on the 31st.

bro went for camping already, the house is almost quiet without him.

i need rest.

laters earthlings!

how much i miss you...

2006-12-26T13:31:00.000+08:00

2006-12-26T12:56:00.000+08:00

i took 2 hours to dry and iron my uniform, it stinks so badly. Whats worse, i forgot to bring back my socks home! owww... thats a sin!

whatever it is, 6 more days to PAY DAY!!!!!

It's time for the season of giving, receiving and love..
Merry Christmas to all!

&
of course, happy birthday to tiko HANLING!!!!
hehehe, im nice you see.
=PP

later...

2006-12-24T22:11:00.000+08:00

Its christmas tomorrow but the spirit isnt there, since i got to work and hunny is not around, there's nothing to be excited about.

It was another day, i was late for work by 2mins again. I feel like staying on for work, but at the same time quitting. Contradicting, many reasons behind... but i dont know how to tell the in charge, words dont come easy you know.

Just found out bro bought a big puma bag for her gf! like wtf, i want it also lurr. ): if mummy knows he's spending money as if dad owns a atm machine, mummy's going to rip his skin off! hahaha.
anyhows, im going to get the ripcurl strawbag with siti sooooooooooon!!!

sometimes the harder you wish for something the tougher it gets to bring you closer to it, you've got to overcome the obstacles to reach your aims
but sometimes the weirdest thing is that you can actually gain that something just by mere efforts when you have no desire to have it.
okay, so life's puzzled that way.

im going to rest early tonight, who cares if it is a christmas eve or whatever.

Silence does not always equate to consent,
sigh..

2006-12-21T20:47:00.000+08:00

the weather has been bad all week long, its so nerve wrecking when you plan to go out but the big rain comes and dishearten the feeling.

The hateful thing is that this rain is seemingly never ending, its like getting a free shower when you're still carrying a brolly!
arghh rain please go away or this xmas is going to be wet and rainy.

havent been updating for quite some time, yes, i had been the same. Work is never ending and never stopping.
I was being transferred to Vivo City for a day work ystd because 3 of their stafts fall sick at one go, it was a last minute decision. The people there are nice, this includes the VERY pretty in-charge, oh and i made alot of friends there from other outlets! hahaha. (:
Today, the power supply for the entire mall shut down for around 30mins, those people fled to the exit door as if there were some terrorist attack. The shop was in a mess but luckily i was in the morning shift, so no need to fold!
Oh and i met mrs ng in the shop today, haha!

life is forever that mysterious, since we don't know what experiences we'll be encountering along the way, you'll never know if after the rainbow there is an ooze of serenity. so to that somebody, CHEER UP!

yay, tml pressie exchange, im so looking for it! =DDDDDDD
i hope im off on xmas! *prays*
n i have yet to get the presents for my close ones and those xmas cards are yet to send out too! oh god, sounds mad.

till then...

(:

2006-12-17T20:32:00.000+08:00

waaaa, i accidentally press on smth and everything's gone! SHIIIIIIIIITTTT

bt anw today wasnt tht bad except for the warning part. Ive decided to quit after i get my first pay, since shelia is leaving and siti might too. I dont see the point staying on and tiring myself out. So far i think zhenpei's the only one doing well! hahaha. Hunny sent me to work early in the morning today, had breakfast at mac, though its a shortwhile but its meaningful, two thumbs up for my darling. -beaaaaaaaaammmmsssssssss- Im contented. (:

Im off tml! yes yes yessssssss.. but im working full shift straight after my off on tues.

Xmas is coming!!!! okay, Santa, ive been a good girl so won't you grant my wish this year?
If you had seeen my wishlist for this coming santa, you will drop ur jaws! so better not post it here. hahahaha, im going to write on the paper and squeeze it into my ready-to-hang-socks! =DDDDDDDDD
Before that, i should better prepare my presents for this gift exchange prog with my colleague first!

okay,
my shoulders are bloody aching, i should shut myself from the world now!

oh and of course ALLLL the best to all the N-lvl candidates taking their results tml esp to my best BUDDDDDDDDDDDDY! i know you can do it. ((:

2006-12-15T20:23:00.000+08:00

I was late for work today, another 2 times, they will docked my pay.

Got so annoyed in the noon because i was being scolded over a very small careless mistake and my fat boss gave me that big F face. Im still a trainee lurr, and i think siti got scolded by her too because of the mistake. Dad is asking me to quit and join him at work, but uhh such a dilemma, i couldnt make up my mind. All the most i will hang in thr for a month. & you will go bonkers listening to those xmas song everyday, i can even sing it out for you.

& ahhhhh i cant go for the flea market tml! miss the one last sat, and im going to miss it again. shucks! )):

sigh, work is sucha pain, luckily my fat boss working noon shift. phew..

for now, im going to rub some counterpain cream on my legs.
couldnt be bothered now, REST!

2006-12-14T20:34:00.000+08:00

It's been quite a while since I blogged, things are really busy at work.
I dreaded work this morning, dragged myself from the bed and trained to work. Its only the second day of work and im down with a bad sore throat, my eyes were swollen from the lack of sleep too, meanwhile ive started wearing lenses, and you know how big shit it is when your eyes are puffy and red. yay, that is it. My colleagues are all nice ppl, but not as fun as the one at bugis outlet lurr. My only moments of relaxation are during lunchtime and when I make a visit to the restroom. Oh and btw i can only use my phone during my breaktime! so people, you know...

My shoulders are all tensed up and I'm aching, i need a good massage.
Saying of which, although im tired but i found myself sleepless in the night, i had no idea why. Siti had the same problem with me. & when im going into deep sleep, the alarm rings.
):

I'm tired & right about to fall asleep on my keyboard but whatever it is, happy birthday to my sweetie YING! although i failed to meet you up today, i promise there will be a next time, it will be my treat by then! hahaha. much missed!

i need a rest now, morning shift again! shucks.

imissyou.

sigh...

2006-12-11T20:58:00.000+08:00

I hate being in a position when I'm unable to make any decisions.

things come unplanned, and if Linda called tonight, i will hardly have time. The work scheldues are tight, but i believe tht people must be fun in order to get through the long hours of work.

Okay next up, ive to really squeeze my brain juice and come up with a good plan.
When times to come, you people will know what is it! (:

Hopefully things will go smoothly from now on.

pls let my phone rinnnngg! *crosses fingers*

2006-12-10T22:39:00.000+08:00

party today, very drained out. Flu is picking against me, im very irritated by it for the whole afternoon, it gets better now.

Finished stars award, hahaha! needless to comment, because its the usual ones except for some. I need to thank a few people these days for helping me to look for jobs especially adam, very grateful to him, i believed the others who got a job through him felt the same way as me too. I hope tomorrow's interview will be a success, i dont want to be a jobless soul lurr, F boring. My sweeties are busy with work i guess, even nana is starting to work tml. AHHHHH! & of course my hunny, the one who brought me along and showering me with loads of love and support!
My parents are worried abt whatever job im holding and i appreciate their concern, yay!

I need loads of $$$ for this xmas.

I'm pretty much drained right now, I can hardly keep my eyes open &I'm all over the couch.

2006-12-09T15:38:00.000+08:00

Okay, so the visuals!

(:

http://www.imagestation.com/album/pictures.html?id=2098352217

2006-12-08T20:11:00.000+08:00

HELLO.

I'm back. It kicked ass! Going out of the hotel at 8am, and going back to the hotel at 11pm, it was nuts lah. I wanna go back to Bangkok again! I don't mind that it's so F hot there, and not as clean but you know for dresses, bags, tops as dirt cheap as they are there, who would mind right? Heh. The food, the tuktuk ride, the beach, the parachute, safari park, theme park and all the fun with the girls. It was priceless memories.
Cuts, burnt, blue black all over my body, it was inevitable anyway, so... (:

Uncle Eddie was funny, funnier than Uncle kitti. Ive tried everything on my own risk in Pattaya except sea-walkers, mum refused to let me to because there wasnt a single one of them who wanted to try that, its walking in the sea by the way. Lost my earrings during the sea sports, hahaha! Banana boat was fun, riding a speed boat was marvellous. It was humping hot on the beach, luckily it didnt rain. The beach was different from how it was in sg, crystal blue sea, white and soft sand, after sitting on the speed boat for 40mins to coral island, some of them was sea-sick while i had this floating sensation with me. Pattaya is the place for young people like us!

Words can't describe the crazy times. Much loves to my girls! They made everything unexpectdly fun. Im missing them now. ):

Now I'm so so tired. My biological clock has gone crazy, and I'm in need of serious rest. So I'm gonna stay home today and sleep away.

Shall let the photos do the talking then..

2006-12-03T14:27:00.000+08:00

ON HIATUS!

I'll be leaving for a 7 days trip to Bangkok and Pattaya. I can hardly wait!!
Okay, i will miss everyone here, this includes my brother who's not going with us, my HUNNNNNY, my sweeties, my buddy and everyone of you.

goodbye.

loves,
MEEEEEEE(:

xoxo.

2006-12-01T20:21:00.000+08:00

Alright, i had some advertising to do today!
First up, lets seee..

SGSELTRADE FLEE! MARKET,
DEC 16TH AT GASHAUS.
The location is just a 5 minutes walk from Bugis Mrt!

Don worry, it is fully air-conditioned!
COME DOWN AND SUPPORT MY FRIENDS!
for more details, IM me on the net or drop me a tag. (:

& attention to plan infinity! this was ripped from my bro's blog. hehehe, helped him to advertise lurr. (:

To GRID users
UNLIMITED SMS
UNLIMITED 1-2-1 PTT to 5 GRID numbers
300 min outgoing calls
300 min 1-2-ALL PTT

To GSM phones
UNLIMITED SMS 1
200 min outgoing calls

Free incoming all day long!

All these at $21/month! (excluding GST)

1: Unlimited SMS until 28 Feb 2007, after which monthly 300 SMS to GSM numbers
- Free Caller ID.
- $15 Registration fee is waived.
- 50 common talkgroups will be activated in each service plan. Users can switch to any of these talkgroups to communicate.

This is a real cool phone, even if you dropped it on the floor, its nobody business! hahaha.
Give me a buzzz if you're interested! :DDD

Did spring cleaning for my room today, i threw all the junks tht had been idling in my room for the past 4 years, & i even threw away the black school shoes but i left one pair luh, don worry in case i need it. Meanwhile i did packing, more or less done.
Im so touched by sweetie na! hahaha. (:
Before i leave, i will come here to blog again so don worry!

hehehe.

2006-11-30T23:54:00.000+08:00

McDonald's video game is lame!
for the past few hours, i had been feeding my cows, sowing in the farm, checking out at my workers, hahaha! Had been playing with my sis over the net, just out of boredom la. Im a moo moo.

Cancelled the meet-up with weili early in the morning, far too drained. Trained down to yck to settle my stuffs, & i realise i had spent far toooooooooo much for this month and most of them are sudden-impulse-buy. Whatever it is, im going to sell away some online. I need money..
When i reached sembawang today, Mrs peter and her daughter boarded the train and actually sat beside me! Her daughter was such a SWEEEEET! I just couldn't help but keep looking at her, but too bad she was completely oblivious to my attention.

I gave up watching on prison break because i seriously cant catch up, i should better borrow vcd from friends instead. urgg! Im caught with tian wai fei xian at the moment, its telecast everyday on channel u at 7pm! thumbs up. (:

My sweeeetie is back! XDDDDDDDD

Im at peace, i should take things in stride from now on..
It's high time to be a little discreet.
Whatever it is, it's all about the mental game.

goodnight.

2006-11-29T22:09:00.000+08:00

Its nearing the end of nov, time flies.
Christmas is to come, 2007 is approaching. (:

My sweetie is coming back tml, and i cant wait to thank her for the photos which karenn delivered it to me this evening. COOL.
We're going to meet up very soon, of course not missing ying!=DD

Ive become indolent, purposeless and even lazier. (sigh!) but ive got a day to myself to sort out my thoughts & to get back on the right track. I came across this, the world will never stop turning just for one person.
yay so the people who are down or dejected out there, keep this in mind with you! *twist..

& to my friend,
like whatever, I couldn't care less, I'll just pretend to be as pragmatic as I can. You should stop being such a cynic, start to believe and trust. Nothing beats such crap on a gloomy wednesday. Shit happens, some would say.
Big apologies to buddy.

and next im going to devote my time to Project Runway.
so ....

ciao!

2006-11-28T21:46:00.000+08:00

I've been sleeping in way too much. I wake up feeling extremely lethargic & oh so reluctant to get out of bed to start the day. Bahhhh.

I went to interview at HDB-hub this afternoon with a heavy heart despite all the comfort words from the friends and hunn. The irony is that everything goes on pretty well, & im ready for the job.
Did a little chat over the phone with jiaying, i cant wait to start work with her if she's really going to work with me, we'll have plenty of fun doing stocks and whatever! cheeers.
& now im having second thoughts about the job at giodarno. shucks.
Went window shopping after tht, hurhur. Now i have a million and one things on my wishlist, hahaha!
Trained home, and i heard this NYP guy says,
" MONEY AINT ENOUGH LA! "
yay, and i agreed.

I need some loving, my caffeine fixes from Starbucks, iced mocha frappucino. Actually, good $1 kopi peng from the coffee shops at hawker centres are fine too.

Im craving for pasta..

Tonight,
The words I wanted to say but didn't in the end,
i miss you.

2006-11-27T18:52:00.000+08:00

I love this skin, simple and attractive.

Im still living off stash of junk foods and magazines, i dont feel like going elsewhere but stay at home. I had a hard time finding people to accompany me out, my sweeties are either working or abroad. ): What else?

Im still brooding over jobs, text karenn in the morning, she introduced me a job at a jap restaurant, im still waiting for the contact no, followed by adam, did a little catch up with him.
Completed A Walk To Remember today, it touches me and i was on the brink of breaking down to tears but i didnt, & yes its listed in my favourites. Get the book from me if you want!

Realise SAW III is a R21 show, double shit.

monday is always mundane.

Who said that every wish
Would be heard and answered
When wished on the morning star

2006-11-26T22:04:00.000+08:00

yup, the trip was fab, sight-viewing was fun, shopping was never enough. Mum and i were both drained out after the spree. In retrospect, if you asked me whats the most unforgettable part for this trip, i think its the eating part of Xiao Long bao and pan-fried dumplings. I was feeling so over-the-moon when i see the dishes, mouth-watering. hahaha! If you havent tried it before, quickly din tai feng served them. (:

I think the guys in KL had got weird taste, their sense of taste, urhhh the very thought of it gave me shudders esp those who had their eyeliner drawn. The shopping centres were saturated with people, & i had a hard time shopping there, nevertheless i bought truckloads of stuffs, and more is to come during my bangkok trip. & know what, i brought mum to all the shopping centres myself, im her tour guide for this trip. hehehe.

So today i woke during noon, accompanied mum to yishun to do shopping, & then we went to bukit timah plaza to retrieve our air-tickets. of course not forgetting the visiting part to ah-ma hse.

Im going to get a hair-cut soon before this sat, perphas dyeing my hair too! (:

Thats all about it,
i miss my baby.

2006-11-25T00:10:00.000+08:00

HELLLO PEOPLE!

Im currently staying put at MELIA HOTEL, yes their facilities are real cool, im a regular customer here! i spent quite alot today, guilty*

but anw i had enjoyed today!!

off to chat with baby, goodnight! *(:

2006-11-23T21:13:00.000+08:00

Totally become devasted early in the morning when i couldnt find my *precious*, became so restless for the rest of the day untill i started to re-collect what happened ystd.
& I FOUND IT! GOTCHA YOU INSIDE THE GARAGE BAG, i think ying knows what am i talking about. hahaha! kisses to it. & hunny, i promised there wont be a next-time anymore.

Had a small catch-up with ying on msn today. Girls, i miss the time we had. (:
Followed by calling up the childcare centre, im currently waiting for their calls, cross my fingers, wait and seee.
Saying of which, im almost completing my novel. YAY! its a very very nice book, and i swear you will indulge in the book and it will keep you reading on.
If you had been wondering what am i doing lately, id been busy playing gunbound and desperately looking for jobs. (:
"CONTINUE BOMBING LAH!" right ying?! hahaha! =DDDDDD
My sweetie Na must be sneezing badly, hahah because im missing her dearly luh! =PP

On a happier note, my mum actually jio-ed me to KL tml for shopping spreee since dad is settling things at the bank there. & yes, it will be a short get-away trip, and i will only be back by saturday night! YEEEEEHAW, but im abit perplexed because mum cancelled the Genting trip, but instead she's bringing us to KL now. Anyhow.

its the same thing, day in day out.
the mundanity of life.
today didnt start off very well, but oh well, everyone's entitled to having an emo day once in a while. so ...

i miss you truckloads.

till then..

2006-11-22T19:05:00.000+08:00

Woke up and went to collect my JAE form from karrenn's mum, flipped and read up the booklet, but i wasnt much interested at all, so i shall wait for mum to be back, and lets see how she says.

After bathing, i trained down to Sun Plaza, I finally(at last!!!) got my Nicholas Sparks's Novels, yes and its my long-searching for it one, A walk to remember.
I grabbed the True Believer too. Im so eager to finish up the books. (:
Meanwhile, i bought a handful of stuffs too. YEEEEEHAWWW!
Went down to Junction 8, walked around and i entered the shops where they have the poster up asking for Sales Assistant, but i was totally turned off, because they need full-timer now, shucks.
Became so lost on the way home, im asked myself where is my goal? what do i want now? At tht very moment, i need a fresh start or a chance to pick up where I left off. What will become of me in the future? i have no idea how i got this far but i'm going further, i will.

Anyhow, i met up with hunny after tht for dinner, & we stonned at the playground awhile before heading home. Oh yay! happy tenth love! hees.

Saying of which, my Genting trip might be cancelled because dad met an accident, but luckily he wasnt injured. It's alright anyway.

Its wed nite! I had missed 2 espiodes of Project Runway, and i cannot afford to miss it again tonight.
So yay people,

goodnight!

2006-11-22T11:40:00.000+08:00

Yesterday, I plunge into the bed straight after the tv shows around 10, and i dozed off within 5 minutes, i was so drained off tht i didnt give a bother to all the calls and messages which came in after that.
Suppose to meet up karenn and miaoHui at 7.45am this morning but urhh i woke up with my body aching all over, the kind of energy-less feeling, so i decided to give both the class gathering and talk a miss, and rest in for a day. (:
Enjoy though!

The cramps get the better off me, got so fucked up by it, urggg! touchwood, I don't wanna jinx myself! It's kinda weird that I'm feeling achy on my left arm despite the fact that I've not done any exercise. =\ Sometimes I really wonder how old my body is, with all the aches and pains I feel. ):

Went to vivo with hunny ystd, we were planning to catch Casino Royale there, but unfortunately it was packed with people, the queue was as long as excatly how it was on saturday,& hunn couldn't stand the thought of battling with the lunch crowd so we decided to train back to jurong for the show instead, it wasnt as nice as how Adrian described it, but it was still an overall nice movie. (: make out loads of fun with hunny, you're such a lovely!

Okay, so im going to have my sleeep soon and then i shall catch up on my flims,
(:

2006-11-19T17:23:00.000+08:00

I saw this today, david and goliath BOYS ARE SMELLY briefcase. coool isnt it?!

Early morning, i headed down to City Plaza with my parents, our main objective was to look for travel services, so after hrs of discussing and walking around, we headed down to bukit timah to have our lunch and all, we were deciding 3 places beforehand, shanghai, hk or pattaya, but the flights were fully booked, and on the other hand we have to make it back before 16th since dad is going to be away soon.

So im leaving for Bangkok and Pattaya on the 2nd of Dec, my flight is in the night, im very looking forward to Pattaya esp the Theme Park, im going to unwind and scream my lungs out over thr, follow by water activities, not forgetting the corals! ((:
Shanghai's cold now, 0-8 degree celsius, & the only time they have is on christmas, definitely a no-no! So in the end, mummy promised to bring us to disneyland during march holiday next yr. Im alright with it as long as i can play! yay! :DDD

Let's look forward to coming friday first. Im going to disturb my sister since she's going to share a room with me! hahaha. =PP

Buying is never ending, bought a puma bag and a white bottom today(:
I dont have to worry about anything esp when im out with my mum! hahaha.
She's great! weeeet.

987fm has got great songs, they are my love! folks, tune in oftenly. meanwhile hear out for my dedications! *twists.

Guys, i need help! hahaha, im unsure abt the JAE thingy, is it on monday or tues, im confused. TAG ME!!

Im drained out, dad had went out with bro for test-drive, before he's back to bring us to granny's place again, im going to take my bath. (:

till then...

Every time you're near
I feel like I'm in heaven,
feeling high

2006-11-18T21:42:00.000+08:00

Headed down to vivo city with few of my lovlies, we had great fun there isnt it! (:
Supposed to watch casino royale but the few of us did not support the idea so our organiser, youlong had to abide to the majority. Sorry youlong!
Nevertheless after walking around, viewing the sea and playing in the arcade, wanted to pak pool but opps somebody cant, haha! so we began to settle down outside GV, guess what, we played uno and murderer for the whole entire 3 hrs, everything was fab!
trained home, ive a high tendency to fall asleep on the train, got woken by the sudden jerk, so embarassed because the uncle in front of me was looking in my direction. ><

on a lighter note, thanks for everything esp youlong and those who took the effort to turn up! :] more of this please,
i miss sweetie na!

i'm home alone on a saturday night.
the irony is that i don't mind.

I need to get a novel from the library soon.

So much for sleeping at 3.30am &getting up at 8am. Insane, that would be an appropriate description for it. I need my beauty sleep but before tht I need something to satisfy my hunger, im starving badly.

photos will be up soon, so wait patiently!
nothing much for the weekends, just plain slogging.

I need more retail therapy, got a long sleeve from zara recently and im in love with it. hahaha! meanwhile, i need money la. Mummy got a tote bag for me from bega Boutique. (:

alright, speaking of which, im off to get some snacks.

i miss you.

2006-11-17T11:09:00.000+08:00

Hello people! Im re-opening my lovely to update you people, actually i had been blogging since starting of the year? yes, it had been an absolute secret to people out thr except my love.

Oh yes, like what, its freeeeeedom!
refused to work at dad's place because i know if i worked thr, i will not gain any experience, because i will just simply sit down there for the whole entire day waiting for $$ to enter my pocket, plus i know nuts about accounts and stuffs, (: thts a no-no! I shall make full use of this long holiday to get a job, a job tht i had long wanted, but i think the jobs classified makes no use. But never mind, i shall continue my job-hunting.

I love those photos, its more than memories! But we have to move on one day, see you people again on the 21st! (:

& for now, i shall take my own sweet time to pack my cupboard that is exploding with books.

take care people esp those who're sick,
anna says my voice is getting sexy becos of the damn flu and sorethroat..

(:

2006-11-13T11:51:00.000+08:00

BRAVE THE STORM AND EMERGE STRONG!

for my hunny, & me, & my sweeets
HANG ON there!

(:

2006-11-10T11:08:00.000+08:00

Someday We'll Know

Mandy:
Ninety Miles outside Chicago
Can't stop driving
I don't know why
So many questions
Need an answer
Two years later
You're still on my mind
Jonathan:
Whatever happen to Amelia Earhart?
Who holds the stars up in the sky?
Is true love just once in a lifetime?
Both:
Did the captain of the Titanic cry?

(Chorus)
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain...
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue...
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...

Mandy:
Does anybody know the way to Atlantis?
Jonathan:
Or what the wind says when she cries?
Mandy:
I'm speeding by the place that I met you
Both:
For the 97th time...tonight

(Chorus)
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain...
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue...
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)
Both:
Someday we'll know
Jonathan:
Why Samson loved Delilah...
Both:
One day I'll go
Mandy:
Dancing on the moon...
Both:
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you...
Mandy:
I bought a ticket to the end of the rainbow,
Jonathan:
And watched the stars crash in the sea,
Mandy:
If I could ask God just one question...
Both:
Why aren't you here with me?...tonight

(Chorus)
Someday we'll know
If love can move a mountain...
Someday we'll know
Why the sky is blue...
Someday we'll know
Why I wasn't meant for you...
(yeah yeah yeah yeah)

Someday we'll know
Why Samson loved Delilah...
One day I'll go
Dancing on the moon...
Someday you'll know
That I was the one for you...

thts my fav song today!((:
yay, why the sky is blue huh, who hold the star in the sky?

maths paper 2!

2006-10-27T17:34:00.000+08:00

my bro had pass his driving test after few attempts, hahah! but mum says its a no no for him to drive for the first year, he's a reckless driver! :PP

Ive got smth to share, yay! i was reading biology just now on the chapt of homeostasis, & i came across a q, where in man the horny layer thickest?
yes its on the soles of our feet and our palms, hmm... i think its interesting, next time i must take great observation on hunn's feet and palms already, hunn's my horny pig, ya right! :DDDD

mummy keeps bitching on the phone today, peace finally.
(:
I brought up the subj of furthuring studies overseas to mum today, she had no preference but not now, i have to wait for at least 3 more years, ya i think thts good too, 3 more years, bro will be off from NS, i bet he will want to study overseas, screamsssss* sigh...
aye whatever la. ..

alright, im off. Ghost whispers tonight, i think its a nice show.
(must watch!)

mug mug mug..

2006-10-24T21:34:00.000+08:00

Tonight, im all out of words to say how truly blessed i am to have you in my life ; but, you're really the one for me. i will always thank God for letting me know someone as giving and as patient as you.

:)

i am loved.

time fOR SOCIAL STUDIES!

2006-10-22T22:33:00.000+08:00

see this, Makes me smile saying 'how true'...

mum's always right!! :]

ive got smth to share with hunn today!!

lets see the following, its known as the girl's formula.

im hunn's problems.

but heyy..

If,Women = Problems
Then,
Men = Root of the ALL Problems.

hahaha! right. ((:

just some entertainment received from kaixuan via email, oh right, happy 9th love!

heeeees. ..

2006-10-21T19:16:00.000+08:00

aha, we didnt forget szehui(:

LOVES <3

im so lazy, just a collage yay, ive limited amt of photos tooo. ):

2006-10-20T16:42:00.000+08:00

dead beat, i felt like plunging into my bed to sleep now, but kept myself awake to type this.

Grad's day was beautiful. The whole process was 2 thumbs-up, before and after, it was gracious and enjoyable. I was swaying along with the music, snapping photos & for the first time, i felt proud being a marsiling, singing our school song loud and with zest. Last gift from Mrs Ng, a small lil lovely note with remarks on it, all i could say is thank you mama Ng. (:

Had refreshments and thts when i broke into tears, weili came and said " wo men yao fen kai le ", handful of my friends witnessed how i broke into tears, so embarassing, i told them SERBIAN WONT CRY TONIGHT! & then weili said, dont cry, i wont let my best buddy drop any tears! tht was the most meaningful words from him, so i started to gather back all my emotions, hugged him before i left the school. Ive absolute faith in my buddy tht he will stay and be promoted to 5s1 next yr.
I had always look forward to my own graduation ceremony, & it arrived and ended, it was savouring. but mum looked forward to only uni grad ceremony. =.="

21 of us headed to the funfair and banquet for drink after the ceremony ends, dad came to pick me up around ten.

Everything came to a halt and i met up weili for lunch today, did some catching up, caught few of his words, reflect and decided to apply on my studies. (: i hope you're doing well.

4 years of secondary life was much pleasing than anything else, bitterness sourness sweetness, ive tasted all, but im not quite sure whether im ready to move on to higher lvl, i felt im nv enough for it, but its time to take flight for our next journey. Ive grown up in msl, i will always rmb this nest, all the joys, laughter will be kept as memories, etched in my pea head! :D
When a crisis hits you bad, you will realise who are the true friends who'd stick by you, who are the ones you can safely hold close to your heart &tell them that you love them &mean it at the same time. You also knw who are the ones who can accept you for who you are, or me for who I am, whether I am unglam when I eat candy, or when I stuff my food in my mouth, you people meant a world to me, let this friendship flows on, Words can never express my love & gratitude for you. Thank you my 3 dearies. I love you people.
& to the regret one, although ours might not had really stood thru the storm, rain & the sun, i havent forgot those long hours at town to waste with nothing to do.
Thank you zourdan for the lovely hi message, you're not forgotten, if you havent dropped out of school last yr, you had already graduated.

Goodbye friends, goodbye msl...

now...
IM PROUD TO SCREEEEEEEAMMMM IM A MSL GRADUAND! =DDDD

Everything had settled well, be it matters with my asshole and studies, yay!
im still hunny's b-i-t-c-h! =.="
hahaha! i love you hunny, & I'm so happy I can't wipe this silly grin off my face. may there be many love, its our 9th mth sooon!! :DDDD

dad's going away next mth, right when i was having my exams, tht means ive to settled on myself again, yay, they picked the right time! >.<
17 more days to first paper.. .. ...

alright and
its time to hit the sack, transfering of photos had completed, & im ready for some uploading tml. yay, goodnight people.

(:

ASSSSSHOOOOLE, I MISS YOU GREATLY BADLY!!!!

2006-10-16T11:37:00.000+08:00

Realised I was quite whiny and contradicting, i picked and dropped the phone more than 10 times ystd, text and clear field all over again and again. I dont want to initiate sending you a text or calling you, because i know i might give you the wrong ideas again, when tht happens, some words can utter out of anger and with a lack-of-thinking.

I felt so confused and fucked up. My actions contradict my feelings. My heart screams a word while my words speak another. Im working on it very hard.

I know you will see this,
If i was the one who made you feel this way, i suppose yes i am the one, i apologise, if you asked me to go away, i will stay away from you, When you say i dont understand you at all, i know its my negligence, but please dont give me cold shoulders.
-

it always happens at the wrong time..
I seek for your forgiveness and understanding. . .

*double lucks for me and my classmates.

EMO TIME IS OVER. ...

i bury myself in books,
its the only thing that takes my mind off you.

2006-10-09T12:04:00.000+08:00

thought over the whole night, I just wanna be happy, even though alot of things had been happening, but i know its the last few things in secondary life. Im going to move on to teritary level v soon, nothing's going to bring me down, nobody deserves to, nobody worth it.

I got so emotional when i saw my friends around me laughing chuckling when i tell jokes and make laughter to them, because i know after graduation day, i dont know when will we see each other again, i miss you people, i do and i mean it.
Those whom i had treated shabbily, i just had to apologise, right here in me, you guys do have a position, or else i wont be thinking over and over again.

8 more days to mark the end of focused revision, 11 days to graduation day, i know i have to control my emotions. i decided to type my last few msgs to all my dearies, everybody will receive one on the day of graduation day, shhhh, so not going to expose anything. (:

):

to my hunny,
every moment by your side is a step into the comfort zone. Every embrace we share sinks my soul into you, every kiss we exchange softens my heart and engraves an 'i love you' word on it.
boy, I love you and i dont think any amount of words or actions could ever express it. (:

trigger happy with you in my life, & of course with all my friends!

like what na says, every journey starts with one step, even if its a small one..

:D

2006-10-08T18:20:00.000+08:00

boohoo!

chinese garden's programme had ended already.

im sucha sotong!!!

2006-10-08T00:08:00.000+08:00

caught stuck on you on channel 5 just now, it was one fab flim!

lets see, ive only left phy nov 2003 paper after a "hard" day work.

(:

i need fresher air, i need loads of oxygen!
stop burning the trees. Blame the corrupted government, This is probably the worse I've ever seen it. It's starting to worry me, people falling sick according to some it's due to the haze. amd ystd latern festival had literally contribute more..
PSI had risen to 140+ now, 100 is considered unhealthy already. urhh! song gee was saying he's hoping the MOE will announce tht we should stay at home instead of going to school! haha.

weili's evil, he sent me this text which says he will be going to taipei next week, got freak out, nealy burst into tears untill i scroll down and continue reading, idiot! screamed his head off, he said he knew my reaction would be like tht! *kicks*

alright, talking to hunny online now! he's in the lan shop bloody playing with his games now.

):

i should hit the sack soon!

yawns.

2006-10-06T15:39:00.000+08:00

weekend's here, and im drained out, 5 hrs of sleep is never enough for me, never.

all i do is eat sleep shit smell five year series books, worksheets, exam papers and the list goes on. i am on my way to achieve my A1s A2s and B.

firstly, i can forget abt entering 3-mth jc course, i have a L1R5 of 22, but im appealing for ijc, urhh i hope i can enter it, i dont want to regret for my whole entire life just because i did not get the taste of how jc life is.
L1R4 of 17. I know its not going to get me anywhere, browsing through all the brochures, ive somehow make up my mind where to go, its either B&F or science course. Im upset over my results although ive improved from a R4 of 23 to 17. Ive to apologise because i know i let mum down, it seems like all the hardwork didnt pay off because of my carelessness! ive got plenty of mistakes across the paper. *vomits* I'm very confused, or rather, I really wonder how the world works you know. Do people actually deserve the things that they get?
its okay, continue to work hard. (:

kai xuan was reading her graduation speech just now in the class, she will be reading to the whole entire graduating students, woah just after her speeches end and ms woo's words, my tears just built up in my eyes. Yay, even if we part, we have to move on. (:
Lessons/revisions/remedials had been going on well, and ive shifted my seat again, next to willy.
Time's not on our side. just like how it had just barely started and now its coming to a close.
na had decided to furthur her studies in aus after Os. she's most probably leaving in jan 07. I will rmb what ms woo told us today, though we're the best of friends, we need not to be together all the time, because you're always one phonecall away.

Next, alot of unhappiness is going on ard in the class between my cliques and pei kee. Had been pestered with phonecalls and messages from unrelated people. Im agitated and irritated, your tactless, insensitive, unwanted comments, Please learn where to draw the damn line. Maybe, someday soon you will understand & it could be sweet all over again.
Reflect on ms woo's words today, seems meaningful. (:

why is it that we're always comparing ourselves to others, without thinking that others might be comparing themselves to you. I'm serious, think about it. It's not just a one way thing. Wait, I think it's more of, why won't we believe that someone might be comparing themselves to us? Why do we intend on comparing ourselves to others instead?

Last, i wanna thanks my great hunny for all the understandings, support and love you gave it to me! just hang on for a bit more, we'll get there, & no matter what, dont go downhill, achieve what you want, you make opportunities yourself. you'll go far one day.(:

I should take a rest now, its almost 4, tution ltr.

goodbye.

2006-10-01T21:25:00.000+08:00

Absolute fun ystd at wai po's hse, basically i had spent my whole afternoon reading storybooks for my lil cousin, and then its all about watching Princess Hours, the new korean show thts going to broadcast on the 9th, although ive only watched the first and the last episode, it was both thumbs up, know the whole storyline alrdy, i just wanna buy or borrow the cd from somebody and finished it during the weekends before i got so attached to the show. Deserving.(:

So i must say, happy birthday to my wai gong in advance first! oh ive got blue blacks on my left arm, not going to mention furthur on. Ping-pong tables are real heavy. cries*

Lately, ive been caught up with tv shows untill late nights, love story on tues night, project runway on wed, prison break on thurs, desperate hoursewife on fri night, its all about channel 5, yays, and i love it to bits. (:
Therefore, i woke up drained and sleeepy everyday. But i decided to be good and turned in early from this week onwards. hmm.. contradictions. hahaha!

Focused Revision Timetable starts tml, pfft. I'd say the timetable's pretty okay, spiffy I guess. Lessons end slightly earlier than before, other than our class and m2, the rest had to stay for remedials up to 4pm. Likewise, some of us had to stay for extra remedial lessons.

Had been maintain my healthy indulgence in dead matter (novels). Finished The Undomestic Goddess today, i must say its interesting and sweet, but not in my favourite list. So currently, i dont have any novels with me, i owed school library a book, i returned it long time ago but they demanded me to look for it in the whole entire library, otherwise they wont let me have my leaving cert. They have poor work efficiency and attitude. complains!!!! Ive completed 2 sets of amaths ws too.[;
Mum had been so pissed off with me just now, because she had got such a lazybone daughter like me! I irritates her, haha! she wanted me to clean my dustbin in my room, from last week she had been saying but i havent been doing, she shows her power today, she says she's going to dock my pay if i dont do it by tonight, aha & its like the end of the world, i ran to get a plastic bag. (:

szehui's bad, she texted me just now about some prank, luckily i didnt got into her trap, this proved i had been alert enough.(:

itchy itchy scratchy scratchy, kill all the mosquitos!!
couldnt stand it anymore.

alright, likewise, im coming back during the weekends.
all the best for N-candidates, & happy children's day! :DD

goodnight all!

2006-09-29T22:33:00.000+08:00

results came knocking on our doors today (literally), i thought i could have done better but before tht ive made the utmost preparation for the results, i passed both sciences, at least physics. well, im afraid i cant enter these 3-mth jc course, I need those first three months. I'm not going to rot at home. I just want to make it. but sigh, im a disappointment to myself. Afterall, i havent put in enough effort.. I know whats wrong, im too rational when doing questions, with a quick think on the q without bothering reading on the q, i pen down my answers, so the aftermaths, i have to pay for the price... i can blame no one but myself. it was afterall me who sat for the papers. i felt like a crushed bread.

):

but life goes on... bounce!(:

furthur on, im amazed by all the sour things pei kee did. heh, im not being evil here, you will lose all your friends if you continue this way, im done with you.
Dont try to malign people, & spout whatever in front of ms neo. . ..

exploding head..

it's the happy vibes again. I'm just happy for no reason again.

Love is what makes you smile when you're tired Love is when you tell a guy you like his shirt, &he wears it every day &when you love somebody, your eyelashes go up &down, letting those little stars out of you

You'll never get found if you don't get lost.

i love you, hunny.
you're the one who makes things happen.

i love this pic, filled with vintage love.

xoxo,

hitting the sack, my eyes are closing.
goodnight world!

2006-09-27T21:56:00.000+08:00

just random note:
-results came knocking on our doors tml.
-RP was fun, high tech, both thumbs up.(:
-mosquito kiss, my knee is swollen.
-Treasure all the times in school with my dearies, esp anna ker, who might be leaving for aus after Os. ): shall not go on, i would break into tears anytime.
-now we have to mug harder it is way tougher.
-my hunny was a handsome young chap today! owww, love him to bits.

=DDD

i had fun today.

messy table, implies why my table in school is nv neat. (:

bought for nana at danga street mall, sweet enough yay!=DD
the aftermath of mugging through the nights. fugly ugly.. ):

2006-09-26T15:40:00.000+08:00

I'm awake. At an insanely napping hour, but still very much awake, I need to get me some sleep before my body system goes haywire again. rAWhhh!! :(

Weeks of prelim had passed, and i could finally sit back and said, prelim's over!!! but pls remind me O lvl is the big business now. urhh i hope i could enter the 3mth-jc. if not, life still goes on.... (:

lunched at long john just now with the usuals, ying said sleeping is a waste of time in life, gosh! and she was directly being commented by szehui and me, wooooah, both of us are great speakers, hahaha! esp when comes to sleep and food, its heaven, what we called LIFE. (:
depriving of sleep for the past few nights, basically had been mugging and mugging through the night, through the weekends but heh now everything's over, shall continue to mug even harder for O. (:

Dad and bro's graduation ceremony was a success, i realised the importance of family bonds. Brother changed, be it in attitude and personality, he dont screamed at me anymore when i sneaked into his room and eat his panda bear's biscuits!=DDDDDDDD
As for dad, believed he changed for good, he treasures us even more, he hugged my uncle and mummy the other night!! *rolling-eyes*
Mummy talks to me nicely nowadays, matters which i thought she hasnt been understanding enough in the past becomes a turn-over, she had been nice. (:
Of course, i enjoyed myself at the family's gathering, did some catch-up with edmund and shengyu, as well as the rest of them in the house.
I love all of them..

Bought a bag and an album which contain our pictures for her, she was more than pleased.(:
Love my dearies friends.... ((:

Last, I love TEDDY. =DDDD
i miss you hunny.

Oh, &
HAPPY BIRTHDAY DADDDY!!!! :DDDD

2006-09-22T22:53:00.000+08:00

im so hungry and knackered. ..

mum's breaking her promise again, all she cares are about her flowers!! rawwwwhh!!
):

maybe i havent seen hunny for long time, in fact not, we've just seen each other 1 day ago for lunch, started wanting to stick to you be with you, im missing you now, you make me happy when the skies are grey, i dont know why i get very high spirits whenever im seeeing you.((:

mark my words, cos I'm never taking them back.

<3

goodnights.

2006-09-22T15:18:00.000+08:00

take a breather homies!
just two more papers to go!

maths P2 and bio papers, (screeeeams!) i think both subjs sucks, esp bio when comes to memorising theory, 24 plus chapters of pure biology, called me a bersek.

prelim-papers are a horrid, thts all i can say esp maths, nothing else more than maths, tough of the tough, the rest were considered so-so, but i know i wont score well for prelims, boooo ):
basically, ive a very very poor memory, ive forgotten all my theory works during the papers, imagine i was bitting my pen, freaking out my brain, thats it. i dont want to have to spell it out.

The house's so quiet esp in the night, its just the 3 of us, mum, sis and me, and mum turned in at 10pm so i was left alone studying through the night, bet dad and bro had a great time at their camp, oh btw, they went for this entrepenuer camp, and tml im going to hyatt hotel in malaysia for their graduation ceremony! This course is really good as reflected from alot of people, esp my uncle and few of dad's workers, they've really become a better person, thts one thing to praise. Dad called in the midnight ystd and he said its fun yet tough.(:
hahaha! so my weekend's busy, house gathering, graduation ceremony, and best of all, mum's bringing me out to the new danga mall to get nana's pressie! weeeeeees. =DDDDDD
i havent been there yet since their opening. Seriously, i miss both of them, rmb the last trip dad went was to germany for 3 weeks, i cried badly at the airport, haha! but when bro's away, i could use all his property, all his gadgets, woooah, *coool* =PPP maybe when he's really away in NS, i would miss him, irony huh, thts me. (:

I had a great laugh with my kakis today in the canteen because mrs chiu's skirt was blown by the wind, and you know we saw her leggs, and err ..... haha, you know! & we started chuckling, rolling down thr, everybody who saw burst into laughter, i think kairos and me are the ones who laughed the loudest, everybody was looking in our direction, HAHAHA! comes to think of it, its really funny and she wasnt conscious about it. damn, and szehui started to become very dirty, then we make out loads of fun. (((:

Cramp today, helpless to it.
):

Graduation Day is officially fixed on the 19th oct, after Ns-exams!! yay! those good old times, might not seem like a big deal to you people, but trust me, it's a freaking huge deal to me, and when I'm left alone to think about how are we going to be seperated, I just get really upset.

Alright, i should go now, be back sooon,
meeting hunny ltr, hehehe.
& happy 8th mth sweety!

hugs.

(:

2006-09-18T11:05:00.000+08:00

dreaded prelims, ):

it had been draining me out. i dreamed a little dream last night! its all about hunny, (:
urhhh i bet i must be smiling so blissfully ystd night, even drooling on the bed! haha, =PPP

im loved :)
lets fall in love all over again, every day all our lives.

tution ltr! (screamssss)

all the best for my wriitten exams, im doing my best. so i shall be back next week again to update my fumblings.

P/S: I miss you, I really do.

2006-09-16T19:32:00.000+08:00

its all about mugging these days!

come here for a break before i continue, heh basically i screw up pretty much of my practicals esp bio and physics. kiwi fruit came out, we have to draw, yes i did, fugly ugly(: and we were told to count the SEEEEDS in the fruit, like darn, there's a method to do but urh, i dont know how. and i didnt read the q properly, i only counted 1 part of the fruit, (screammmms!) anyway, its over, haa! i just hope i dont get any stomachace during the exams like how i suffered during phy prac, i waited untill i get home before settling down for my businesssss, you nv know how bad it is, >.<
bad experience, must be the chicken wings i ate before the night. & then mdm chan came and spoke to me about the sponsorship for year book, she wanted me to talk to my dad!! there must be some inside information on me going ard among the teachers, but yet i havent talked to my dad, i dont give much bother on it because basically they want us to fork out $$ again, i believe they will find a way anyway((: lucks.

urh, the house's going to be so empty next week, dad and brother are going away on thurs, on the other hand, pretty good because at least nobody's going to disturb me when im mugging away(: but sighhhh, nobody's going to send me to school, i hope mummy does! ((:
heheees!

not much to blog, im going to hit the sack very late in the night, i hope everything goes out well out there. Realise i have done my best in staying away from the internet, i thought my life would be lacking of smth, but no, i came home i sleep revise and watch tv with my sister in the noon,(: my mood had settled down too! =DDDD
i had put ms woo's words in my mind, with detemination, i move on((:

full of smileys, because i dont think anything else anymore.

i love my friends, my family and hunny.(:

here's the exam timetable!
monday-SS/MATHS P1
tues-PHYSICS P2/ADD-MATHS P1
wed-GEOG/CHEM P1/P2
thurs-NO PAPER!
friday-PHYSICS P1/AMATHS P2
25/9-MATHS P2
26/9-BIOLOGY!

YOOOOOOHOOOOOOO!(:

im disturbing my sister with the nudge on msn now, hahaha, she's going mad.
=PPPP
byebye.. . ..

2006-09-11T11:00:00.000+08:00

"as we grow up we learn that even the one person that wasn't suppose to let you down, probably will. you will have your heart broken more then once and it's harder every time. you will break hearts too, so remember how it felt like when yours was broken. you'll fight with your best friend. you'll cry because time is moving too fast. and you'll eventually lose someone you love. so take too many pictures, laugh too much, and love like you've never been hurt.
because every sixty seconds you spend upset, is a minute of happiness you'll never get back"

(:

i love this, esp the highlighted ones in red bold.

IT TAKES A BIG HEART, A VERY BIG HEART.
its always disappointment and turning off, but

What doesn't kill me only makes me stronger.

*close one eye*

2006-09-10T23:08:00.000+08:00

Let's see, ive got another 24hours more to my next paper, bio prac!! i showed my dad the prawn i drew and he says ok la, not bad. (:
practice LS and TS with tomato, i wasted food isnt it, so i make full use of it, i did facial, i cut all the tomato into pieces and put it all around my face, the pimples position starts to hurt. ):
urhh, im starting to have this fear, im really afraid the things tht come out tml is beyond our expectations, like poh sim's year, they got the prawn's question, everybody was dumbfounded. I think my jaws will drop if i see smth so out-of-possible coming out tml. Mrs Ng says her prac paper's high standard, she felt as if she could set the cambridge paper alrdy and keep reminding us to study very hard for both prac and theory paper. prays for me.

mugging's smooth flowing, urh i hope my grades will really improve, hard work pays off isnt it? At the same time, i know i should have a prescribed time-table, with a balance like what hun says but i couldnt possibly play 8hrs a day right?

sweets, sour plums and chicken essence had become my essential needs in my everday's life. I felt as if my throat is infested with all the ants, you know the sugar would just stick itself to your (choose area here).
im kind of sort out what i want to be next time, yes i do but im confused on the other hand, because i fear my dream wont come true, i think all i have to do is step by step and it all depends on my results!

alright, no more online-ing from today onwards,
ON A SHORT HIATUS.
untill prelim's over probably,im surrendering my laptop to mummy from tonight onwards,she would probably hide it away to avoid its presence but i will be back during the weekends,(:

its pouring so heavily again, & im alone in the house.

alright, goodbye blogger.

p/s: hunny, i hope you do understand((: , pop me a msg sometimes & i will love you even more ok, urhh and rmb 22th 22th 22th, you get what i mean? okay imagine a red-faced me with white teeth, HEHEHE. rmb to mark in your calendar, (:
say you will be mine & you are nv forgotten, i swear im going to miss you many. ):

2006-09-10T10:40:00.000+08:00

Everybody's so shagged after the early-morning-waking-up and studying untill late evenings in the lib these day, including me. Text WanEr early in the morning and told her im resting at home, yay, she told me she was so drained out too, so everybody's sleeeeping at home except the manic karenn who texts me early in the morning around 8 and told me we dont have to book seats for her, yup. she's a study-crazy.

For me, i shall be resting as much as possible, same time i will be hitting the books too, i should do some shopping today, and some catching up with my friends, i miss hunny very much. ):
I had an exact of 12hrs sleep today, i turned in at 9 ystd night, and woke at 10, oh no, should be 13hrs isnt it? *wide-grins* ((:

so officially 1 more day to practicals, and 8 days to theory exams. Last paper will be on the 26th sept, which i havent forgot, is my dad's birthday, need not mention the holi's going to end, practically ive been mugging mugging and mugging, That's enough to drive me on through to my O's. Suddenly, i felt tired, but i didnt complain, at least ive silence around me now, and i didnt want to do anything else. I just wanna laze around for a day. Lucky I must say, having the right people walking along with me, propelling me forward with bravado of a better tomorrow. I can and will get through all (:

its 10.46am now, i should get cranking on the books now, booooo!

goodbye.

2006-09-05T21:48:00.000+08:00

things have become detrimental, much to my dismay.
so I need the time to have a sound mind - to study, to catharsize and do whatever it takes to find myself again.

I need some understanding from mum, desperately. I dont understand how she thinks, all she speaks is what she thought is for my own good, but it wasnt.

Would you lay with me and just forget the world?

2006-09-04T00:25:00.000+08:00

its past midnight, i embrace the silence, havent enjoy this for time. (:

In hours time, i will receive the answer i long wanted to know for the past few nights.

I wouldn't blame you if you didn't understand me or if you couldn't figure out what is going on. Sometimes I lose myself and I don't really think that I've found me yet. Im not the type of girl who needs her boyfriend to be with her 24hrs time, im not, in a moment of anger, I hauled mean words in your face, this time you initiated the breakup, i couldnt do anything but to hold on and to be strong. I bet I dare not leave you because it hurts just so much.

I suprised myself this time, i was bitten but i refused to let go. I didn't have the heart to argue, i really didnt. Those mean words were spout when my adrenaline glands were active, i flashed back to my inbox and kept reading the texts over and over again, i felt so bitchy. Whats excatly wrong is with me? My close friends know what kind of person i am, & i really dont mind those things esp you going back to malaysia.
Im having Os, practically i wont have time, my scheldue is lined up with tutions and tutions but now I dont want your time, i just need you to stay by my side.

From young, ive been a optimistic girl(almost all the time), there's this " must-win " perspectives in me. I wouldnt want to lose out on smth in life, same goes to this, tht makes me hauling everything out in those texts, now, i got myself into trouble, i lose you. Its time i change, my mum told me before but i thought its a good thing on the other hand, because its a drive for me to get what i want.
Be patience with me, I'll get there someday.

Now I screwed up the whole relationship because of my personalities attitude.

I wont furthur say on anymore because you will think tht im saying all this now just to keep this relationship, i just want to say im not the kind of person you think of.

And tonight, i sat here, its crazy how i miss you. Another chance means alot, we will start all over again, & i promise to become a better person.

Ive braced myself up for your decision.

On a lighter note, learn this tonight, live life to the fullest because every seconds of your life ticks away.

goodbye.

2006-09-01T22:43:00.000+08:00

I've let you down.
But I do love you.
I can't let you leave.
I can't
and I won't.

is it all that great without me
I really want to know.

2006-08-31T17:41:00.000+08:00

its such a memorable day because its finally the last day of a term again!

its 31th and im sitting here typing the old things again. visiting primary school was fab, recollected so much of things but missed out loads of people, ):
ANDY ANDY ANDY called me!! you know how much i misss him over the years! goodness, he remains the same, just put up some weight, the guys were chuckling down thr, because 4 years back, i was taller than any of them among the crowd, but today, GOODNESS, everybody chased me up, esp POW!! ahhaah, ke lao shi rmb him vaguely.(:
even ke lao shi says he looks so handsome now, yeah nod head-
=DDDDD just walked around as usual. (: mr menon says i changed alot, ahhaa, he still recognise me. oww maybe this is my last yr going back? aha, because next yr i will be among the batch who returns to secondary school. (:
but soon we're going to catch up.

It's one of those times where a need to start planning arises. Every year, I look forward to the next because I can't wait to grow up and start living the life of being older and wiser.

Yet now, I sit here and start to realise I don't want to grow up anymore.

The amount of responsibilities are starting to take shape, the amount of commitments are starting to get heavier and the fact that you can't wish for it to all go away - makes everything worse.

In Primary school, everyone wanted to grow up for a chance to have freedom. Look at the kids in the school, rolls eyes* In Secondary school, it was the insane urge to step out of the boundary where freedom was restricted. But now, I reach a standstill. All I did and the thing I did best was to spend my parents' money. Literally, spend everything. I spend everything to shop and eat. That's it.
But now, i realise everything's not about money, its about life because i dont have to worry about anything from young, now looking back, i felt a incomplete person, i admit i took things for granted sometimes, but im not spoilt.. Im not. I would want to work for experience.

There you go, my so called life.
There's so much to worry in the future because one day we have to leave our parents, one had to be independent.

all or nothing, ive heard mr chew's love story today, stupefied. girl's stupidity which inflicted the pain on a person can be so hurting...

nevertheless, happy teacher's day!!

was putting this qing cao you on my wound just now and the pain really trigger my tear buds. i was stupid enough to put qing cao you! urhhh, but mum says this little pain you cry alrdy. but its painful right, i wasnt tht strong anyway.

Why must one give in to circumstances?

2006-08-30T22:17:00.000+08:00

2006-08-30T21:52:00.000+08:00

today's absolute fun! =DDDDDDDDDD

we went our own ways on the train, youlong n zhiying came with me to far east to get the pretty pretty spongebob boxer! it was a great piece!! :]
then we went jalan jalan, youlong finally pamper himself today, spent ard 50bucks? (: i helped him to pick the 2 tops, my taste has been good. hahaha! however zhiying says its ugly, but youlong says its pretty luh!(:

aha, so we went ngee ann city's coffee bean to chill! order my fav tiramisu and white chocho dream!(: actually wanna treat the other 2 but they insisted paying me back, al right, next time then!xDD
catch up alot, we were blabbering everything, i think im so loud and noisy, from the moment we sat on the train, i kept talking non-stop, disturbing sharon and all. aha! thts me. (:
after tht szehui joined us ard 5, we sat and camwhore awhile before leaving, took train back with shin ru! it was pouring really big.. ):

such a miracle, because i didnt spent buying anything today except the snacks part!!! im so fancied by those stuffs. (: but hello, im going to save up for some particular reason! =]]

anyway i love coffee bean, they played all the love songs tht im crazy over it once(:
bring hunnny thr one day! hehehe

urhh, im worried sick now, couldnt get through you hun,
where'd you go?

2006-08-29T21:55:00.001+08:00

physically washed out and not sure what to do.

im too afraid to face her. it was not how i pictured it. the silence was torture. i tried breaking it. failed. a thank you was texted back. before i knew it. it was over, off we went our separate ways.
goodbye my friend. i wont mention you anymore.

it was hard to explain for yourself when you're caught in a situation and couldnt broach out what you actually want to say, It was beyond my control. Even I am beyond my own control. I felt bad today, let 29th aug ends soon,
and on the other hand, you couldnt understand how im feeling.

if only.

it has been 2 bad nights, i dont want to stay this way for another night.

):